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[03 Nov 2005|04:24pm]
how tall are you?
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[14 Jul 2005|11:06am]

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dreams [29 Mar 2005|01:27pm]
i know your heart wont breath what your eyes cant see... but you were my favorite moment of our dead century.
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[28 Mar 2005|06:48pm]
I am going to Fort Knox Kentucky for ROTC training june 2nd... ROTC is Western Michigans Army Reserve Officer Training Corps Program.
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SPRING is ALMOST here! [24 Mar 2005|08:01pm]
and if anyone wants to drive to the magic stick in detroit with me on the 26th, i doubt you will and i doubt i will due to working... but GRAHM COXON is playing there.

also weezer on may 5th at the state theater, they are playing in chicago too, not so sure on the date.


AESOP ROCK, Thurs April 7th, St. Andrews. I'm there.


i had to add another to the list Moby, april 22. Now this is going to be a dance and go crazy fun time.

and on a nother note on the same sort of subject that i cant write about, i am going to go to see the butterflys. not that this makes any money to you but to one person i think it does. and we are going to eat grilled cheese with tomato soup and mix some spices and mushrooms into the soup. mmmm. i dont think i want to eat meat anymore....
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=w= [24 Mar 2005|07:46pm]
I never blush... but I did and am right now.

but then I remember how much of a jerk people can be. And is the one night really worth it to this cowboy? 80 floors high? who says that? And I thought you were in Key West? Your lies dont work out in the end. And he thinks i am nieve but frankly i dont give a shit, i guess that is why things always work out.
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[24 Mar 2005|01:07pm]
call me a nerd but i am listening to the gorallaz new song "feel good inc" which features De La Soul. which is FRICKIN AWESOME! May 23rd "demon days" is released, go and get it...
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oh god... [23 Mar 2005|02:18am]

Don’t get me wrong, I love to read it but I STRONGLY despise writing it. Trying to get every little, tinny, bit of information in a small stupid form that rhymes or captures the reader. Fuck that shit, I’d rather write a huge ass essay or short story. I wish to never have to write poetry again. I wish to never have to get my poetry revised again. Maybe I am a little bitter cause my Instructor gave negative feed back, usually I like negative feed back cause that helps me a lot an its not all ‘lala this is wonderful’ but with poetry, this shit isn’t working. I can handle all the negative feed back in my art classes because I can easly fix it but poety--hell no. I hate meatier, I hate stanzas, and I hate it all. I hate having to find the right word for the right stupid symbol. I hate it and with only 2 or 3 weeks left in this semester I am beginning to think I will get little fiction writing in—sadly. But what can you do he is a good poet with lots of insight so I should take this with a cold… piece of shit (again, I hate finding the right friggin words)

And damn the taxes, damn them to hell I think I did them but I can’t figure out if I did the right year or not. I might just as well go to income tax and have them do it for me screw the pay shit.

And damn the parking services here at WMU I got me a damn ticket to add to the frustration I talked to my mom and all she had to say to me was “are those bowling balls in the basement yours, and where did you steal them from?” this coming from that woman right now in this time of life where I have no money. Thanks mom, thanks for the support. I frickin ate rice cakes for dinner with kool-aid.

Bitch-fest number 3 when will the damn cold end? Huh… I hate Michigan sometimes, I just want to ware my short pants.

now look at this shit-fucks... sory im a little bitter, i hate taxes.
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[20 Mar 2005|10:51pm]
So this boy that I work with flat out told me he is mean to girls and he is a sexist. So here I am working with this sexist, what is a girl to do? Today he asked me if we will always hate each other and I said “yes, well I don’t hate you I just don’t like what you stand for.” Then he replied with “yeah hate is bad”... trying to get the conversation going. But I didn’t talk to him I just went in the back and washed the dishes like a woman should.

The silly part is, is that we both have the same name… now make something of that would ya?
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JUST SMILE [19 Mar 2005|03:59am]
[ mood | indifferent ]

Life is beautiful.
Friends are beautiful.
Ass holes are beautiful.
Jerks are beautiful.
Jesus lovers are beautiful.
Freaks are beautiful.
People... well they are beautiful, did I miss anyone in that damn list?

And if you can’t see this then I guess you aren’t beautiful, don’t hold a grudge it’s not worth it in the long run if you just think about it.

I hate money and some day I won’t have to deal with it.

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HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!! [17 Mar 2005|01:09pm]

I wish I could be in conclin right now drinking it up, but I only have 146 more days to go, you lucky kids. we will surly drink a round then. Drink up today and drink many- just dont make it green beer ok. If I find out you drank a green beer and not a guniness I might disown you.
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theory on life [16 Mar 2005|03:12am]
Truth: the Vikings would plant animals on land along with foods. Then they would travel around and come back to the island with all the good food. Now after a while of being away you can only imagine how this new island looks when they return. So much good food.

Theory: God planted us humans to one day come back and eat us. History repeats its self

...a great person told me this once and I stand by it, maybe he will come tomorrow and eat us all that way i wont have to go to class :D
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[15 Mar 2005|09:57pm]
I don't know about some of the idiots around here... mostly you. :D

this strange man on the bus told me some indian words, but i forgot them when depoux grabed me to look at some wood sculptures. one crazy person after another... then other shit happens. I go to class and the teachers is not around but some jewish man is teaching us and ofcorse he is super funny. he kept telling us about when he would trip on drugs. and this class was a class for drug prevention and dangers. he told us a story about when he was in billbos in lancing the girls got some breadsticks and they found a thing and they thought maybe they got some croutons or something but no in it were 50 hits of ex... huh i wonder if they did them or sold them, he wouldnt tell us. he also asked us if we knew what snuff was and if any of us tried it i think there were two others in the room besides me with their paws in the air. but im glad i didnt get called on cause i would have had to explain to the lecture what the fuck snuff was.
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[14 Mar 2005|01:48am]
oh snap, i was writing a paper doing research and all. oh how good this paper is then bam i am copying a pasting a name and the program freezes. maybe it is cause i had like ten million other programs running but still all i want is for document4 to be all good and happy. thats all i ask. so i am waiting it out. hopefully it will work :/
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[10 Mar 2005|06:38pm]
what a crap filled day, and i hate everyone who reads this.
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[08 Mar 2005|07:08pm]
i got a new icon

its mc chris (ie mc pee pants) if you dont know. you might know if i rap this...

I want candy, bubblegum and taffy
Skip to the sweet shop with my sweet hot Sandy
Got my pennies saved, so I'm her sugar daddy
I'm her Hume Cronyn and she's my Jessica Tandy
I want candy

Put it in a pop
Split it wit my biddy, 50-50 down the line
Kinda like close encounters of the cavity kind
Talkin' licorice kisses, talkin' chocolate-dowsed smiles
I want candy: I got a sugar tooth
Put on your shin guards, Sandy, 'cuz I wanna knock boots
Lick the peppermint stick 'til the lollipop droops
Gumdrops that don't stop 'til the lip locks loose


I need candy, bubblegum and taffy
Get in my way punk, you're gonna get your ass beat, nasty
Do it 'til your dad sees, embarrass your whole family
Just because you came between a kid and his candy

I need candy, any kind'll do
Don't care if it's nutritious or FDA approved
It's gonna make me spaz like bobcats on booze
A hyperactive juice that only I can produce, that fuels a giant drill

That bores straight into hell
Releasin' ancient demons from their sleep forever spell
So they can walk upon the earth and get resituated
And hawk the diet pills MC Pee Pants has created

I need candy, want some candy, eat candy 'til I'm dead
I'll kill you for some candy, give me candy, candy-head
Where you keepin' all the candy? Who made you candy king?
If you don't give me some candy, I will make the ladies sing

Candy in the mornin', candy on the way to school
Candy at school, at lunch, and the afternoon
Candy at school, on the way home from school
Candy at dinner, at dinner, and then…

Mess up the mix
Mix up the mess
Come on down, yo
Here's the address:
Said 612 Wharf Avenue
Right next to the gentlemen's club
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bouncy [06 Mar 2005|03:38am]
So at work when the trustable get bored we bounce a ball- a bouncy ball. It is all fun and games. We bounce it as hard as we can against the back door. We bounce it at each other playing baseball with the rod that we are sposta poke the bubbles in pizzas with. We roll it through the oven racing each other. We cut them open to find the junk on the inside exploring like children do.

After everyone went home it was just me and **** we bounced it back and forth being bored. Me to him—him to me. Then I say “man I wish we had some paddles.” And the chump says “we do.” So I smile and run to the back of the store. As I run I think of how stupid I must look with my big floppy work shoes or boots some might call them. I grab the 16" redwood pizza boards with the small handles. Almost as if they were meant to be a paddle board. We go to the back and play some sort of ghetto racket ball. I stood in the back- oh how I hate getting hit in the head *a-dough balls-hem*. It is all going well, fun and games. Then we loose the ball- damn. Looking for the ball in the corner with old pans, cobwebs and a supply of bleach to kill and army we can't find the damn thing. After sticking our heads in the trash and our hands in the dust we give up. “That’s no big deal just get another damn ball” he said. So we play some more, get a work-out.

Secretly I think to myself I am glad he is smiling he didn't smile all day I don't blame him, giving the night he had. So I just giggle and play some fucked up racket ball. The second ball gets lost but alas the first one was found hiding between some of the bleach bottles, then the second ball was found. So, more dangerously, we play with two balls two pizza boards and two people having fun not caring about the world they live in. Leaving all the fucked-up messed-up lives the two have. No care in the world but to hit the ball as hard as they can. Oh the books we could write on our different lives in the past week, Chuck Palahniuk would smile. In that hour of no care just bouncy ball fun we were free. Free of bills to come debts to pay worries ahead and dissepiments. Then a cigarette break and back to work. It made my day just to see him smile, life’s not that bad… **** told me “I wish I had the ball in the cell last night it would have gave me something to do.”

Names were bleeped to protect the innocent.
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[01 Mar 2005|04:02pm]
a wild pack of family dogs came runnin through the yard one day
my father got his gun, shot it up they ran away ok
a wild pack of family dogs came runnin through the yard
and as my own dog ran away with them i didnt say much of anything at all
a wild pack of family dogs came runnin through the yard
as my little sister played the dogs took her away
and i guess she was eaten up ok yeah
my mothers cryin' blood dust now
my daddy quit his job today
i guess he was fired but thats ok
and im sitting outside by my mud lake
waiting for the pack to take me away
right after i die, the dogs start running up towards the glowing sky
they will receive their rewards
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Karma's Payment [26 Feb 2005|12:44pm]
I will probably have a review of the show this week sometimes if any of you care. Cass Macomb, Mason Jennings, and Modest Mouse. Congress Theater. Let’s just say I am disappointed in the crowd that was around me, I am sure the show would have been better if they were better. I guess that is just an old lady talking saying you should respect the music but still I am pissed I am just glad they were all muffled.

This past two days I grew some more. All we can do now is live. I wonder how I can get on a Karma Payment plain.
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[24 Feb 2005|07:57pm]
tomorrow I am going to see Modest Mouse in Chicago. got a week off of school, that is cool I guess. Call me if you wanna do something this week i guess.

later cats.
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[24 Feb 2005|01:04pm]
and like that you are droped back down to nothing. or even further i dont know.
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dang [22 Feb 2005|05:15pm]
so i was angry i didnt get some of my ebay shit so i left a negative thing for the person. then someone emaild me back and said the kid died 3 weeks ago. huh who would have thought...
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[18 Feb 2005|02:53am]
seeing little MJ's icon on everyones little icon thing makes me laugh. that man, what do you think is going to come about with him?

8 more days till i seee the love of my live where i watched the love of my live a few years ago..... i dont know something about the congress theater and something about captin morgin makes you warm and fuzzy.
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I need help live journal [16 Feb 2005|07:14pm]
so on the 25 i have a few things going on. i already know what one i am going to but what do i tell the other person. you see that is the day of modest mouse in chicago there is no way in hell i would miss that but about two months before this i made plans to do some selling party thing with this girl. but i am not so much intrested in the product and i dont like to sell myself. but i havent talked to her in like a month and she wasnt were there when i needed her... so here is the thing should i call her back or just not go, another thing is her boyfriend gave me my review, i think i should have done better but the world hates me so should i hold that against her by not calling back. anyway i dont really care for this party and it has nothing to do with my life and the concert has everything to do with my life. Oh and on a side note i droped the momrans, they were on the bus today and i looked away it was awkard but i dont need their god.
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[11 Feb 2005|01:03am]
1. pick a band and answer only using the band's song titles: Modest Mouse
2. are you male or female: I came as a rat
3. describe yourself: the fruit that ate itself
4. your best piece of advice: exit does not exist
5. describe your last relationship: cowboy dan
6. describe your last crush: Willful Suspension Of Disbelief
7. say something to someone you have a crush on: Your'e The good things
8. say something to an ex: Think Long
9. say something to someone who hurt you severely: dukes up
10. how do you feel right now: Talkin' shit about a pretty sunset
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[10 Feb 2005|12:53pm]
six more months untill I am 21, zowie!

I got a half-birthday gift. A new Jacket

yeah it is from e-bay but what can ya do.

whenever someone comes around the corner or from behind me and I am not paying attention they scare me. Then I jump alittle and my head bobbs up. They think I am saying HI. THen they say "how are you" and i have to calmy resopond "not bad" in a cool manner but at that same time my heart is pounding and i am scared shit out of my mind- but they dont know this.
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I thought they were never comeing back... [07 Feb 2005|06:32pm]
..but what can you do when you are in highshool and someone tells you someone else threw a shoe at them and they will never come back to Usa. All i wanted to do was listen to them in that damn class were we did nothing. She made me take the tape out because she didnt like the fact that they werent pop or oldies. but....

18 June, 2005 Detroit, United States, Meadow Brook Amphitheatre

so who is in? I'll drive whatever it is only detroit it is friggin OASIS. yeah yeah i know but comeone OASIS. ticks will be on sale on the 12th!!
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Suck it dry, I rule you! [03 Feb 2005|01:26pm]
No wonder why you're so paranoid: it's because you do the crime all the f'ing time.
In your words… “BIIIITCH” I don’t think I captured the essence of the way you say it.

Anyway I'm pissed because I have to pay taxes this year and my bra does not fit. There was another thing that was bugging me but I can't put my finger on it.

"I rule you- you my bitch, suck it dry"
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dream [31 Jan 2005|02:10pm]
so last night i had the strangest dream. someone help me out on this one. if you know anything about dreams tell me what you think. and yes i do know that dreams are just thought endings and bla bla so let me set up my night before the dream.

I was in muskegon got up saw the parents then went to lizes we ate cake with her family then to grand rapids to puck up her bro and ate some pizza then we went to the bob for her 21st. I had maybe one drink of rootbeer and rum before i went but thats all. dance a little when a tecno-hip-hop song came on. after the 21 yearold were good and sloshed i drove back to muskegon at which point i drove to kalamazoo not getting home till 3ish. On the drive i hit alot of dence fog, it was really neet to see the different layers, but scarry. I then go to bed to get up at 7.30 to start some homework. now for the dream. I think i was in a lucid state (rem but the body has more control over what is going on in the dream)

We were at the bob and i was in the chair that i was sitting in most of the time. i was watching everyone dance being bored becaue i cant drink. everything was like the night before. two people that i could recognize in the dream were liz and jeff. Now liz had on a blue shirt and a reddish headband. we were all just sitting around listening to music when all the sudden something grabbed my back-- the center, i could pin point the spot-- and i started to be pulled back. I was pulled so fast i couldnt grab the table or any person. I was being pulled by a force so fast it was like in space oddicy 2000 where the man is going light-speed and everything around him is a blur. Right then i got so scared i awoke from the sleep screaming. not a ahhh but as high as my voice would go, it was a strange pitch. it took a while to calm myself down. The only colors that i could remember were the two colors liz had on.

now im not so sure why i awoke screaming. this has never happened to me before. i only knew about this from the movies. i didnt think it actually happened. this past week has been very stressful for me. i am not so sure if it because of the death, the shitty job, and the being behind in school. but man was i scared. so let me know kids. maybe this was a flash back from when i did that thing a few weeks ago- i am told people get flash backs from that.
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